I don’t like what I see myself becoming. I fear I’m turning into a the typical gay guy; who finds nothing wrong with sleeping around and almost revels in the adventure. The type who says he wants to be in a relationship, but is unwilling to put in the effort when the sexual attraction fluctuates.
At 25, I can count the number of guys I’ve been with on a few fingers, but I think that’s a disingenuous statistic. It makes me feel nice and chaste, but its misleading. I was a virgin until I was 24, so go do the math. In the last year and a half, I’ve been with 4 guys. I learn that by gay standards that’s still very high on the chastity totem pole, especially considering these were guy i was dating. But still, it leaves me unsettled.
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June 26, 2008 at 11:02 pm |
You’re in Dubai too eh? Lucky us.
hope you excuse this, er, intrusion. I’ve come across your blog from searching through google (lonely, self enforced chastity phase guys like me tend to obsess over search results in google for “gay dubai”). Don’t worry, I’m in a closet… of sorts… as well. so, your blog drew me in immediately
anyway, I had begun a path towards becoming “typical gay guy” once. But I could never really bring myself to really do it for long. I’d start one time and stop for a long period of time then start again. I guess I’m just uncomfortable with the whole thing too. Lately I just stopped and haven’t really started again.
It’s okay to be unsettled about it. That mostly means you’re an intelligent person who respects himself (and other people).
i like how you write. all real. hope you write some more.
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